I’m afraid of getting old. I worry about looking old. I worry about not being able to do the things I do now or haven’t done yet. I worry that what I have done so far is not enough and I should have done better.
But what am I really afraid of? Is this fear stopping me enjoy my life and be who I am?
For me, coming up to 50 is a confusing time. In my 20s I was full on career driven and quite possibly good looking in my own way. My aim of starting a family at 30 was achieved at 29 1/2. My 30s were all about my gorgeous daughter, career advancement and getting an MBA for the next phase of my career. Early 40s saw me in my element – I looked young, was full of life and felt accomplished. Everything was on plan and just about right.
Was it a mid-life crisis then that mid-40 saw a wobble, questioning what its all about? For me late 40s feels like something’s out of kilter. My daughter is grown up, I changed my work because I wasn’t getting the same buzz and sometimes the things I think should delight me, often don’t.
Maybe what’s in my head is that I’m running out of time, I’m going to be old soon and it will be too late to be whoever I really am.
A friend sent me the link to Fabulous Fashionistas I’d missed on Channel 4. I watched it as much as anything because I didn’t want to be ungrateful and wing it if he asked me what I thought.
The remarkable ladies on this programme, with an average age of 80, turned my perception of the second half of life on its head. As one of them said – getting older is a privilege.
The programme says they show that old age doesn’t have to be grim and boring. They redefine it with attitude and style.
They embrace life, look after themselves but don’t try and look younger, have purpose and have stopped worrying about what other people think. Inspiring and liberating, maybe that’s why they look, and are so fabulous.
I’ve learnt a lot from these remarkable women. Life’s still an adventure in the later years, a journey to enjoy.
If you haven’t seen it, it’s worth finding a quiet hour to yourself, get a cup or glass of something nice, and enjoy it here.